Monday, February 27, 2006
o...k...so the election is over.i lost,by 36 votes,but im cool!i won't say anything long cuz i'm super busy,i'm still happy knowing that my friends supported me all the way..btw,i lost as secretary but my bestfriend won as 3rd yr rep..next school year,ill give up my position as 2nd yr rep to franz ronquillo since he's the newly elected rep..oh well! thanks again to my comrades! mwah!!!
waaaah i forgot to say that next(or next next?) week,we'll be having our regional and national achievement tests..EWWWW three days of exams!!!! arrghness...
-over and out-
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Friday, February 24, 2006
haha..one of the small flyers i printed out para sa last day of campaigning.shocks..nakakabilib yung mga katropa ko..all out talaga ang suporta! maraming salamat..sobra! pati sila nagprint ng paraphernalia ko..and pinapublicize talaga nila ko..hanep! sobrang salamat talaga..kahit matalo,itong experience ko with them,ok na ren.
medyo..ay wait.SOBRANG kabado ako kung ano magiging outcome ng elections for the student council sa monday..pero may meeting de avance pa in the morning,speeches again! hayyy..nakakaintimidate si ate kathleen..we're both running for secretary.this year,ako ang current second year representative ng council,eh ngayon medyo mas major na yung position na tinatakbuhan ko,since buong school na ang boboto,di kagaya last year na mga kabatch and kayear ko lang! that's whats making me freak oooouuuut!
pero manalo,matalo..eh di tanggapin..hehe..i've had my experience with the council na,pero i would like to continue it if given another chance,lalo pa in a different position..
hoo! God bless candidates! mwahkz! d ko na alam sasabihin ko sa tense! harhar..
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
ok..so the previous days..actually WEEKS,andami walang teachers..kasi andami ren contests.i thought sa third grading lang marami mga competitions,pero until now na malapit na magbakasyon,huwow! yung mga super addictus at mga mega talinong studyante sa room namin,review ng review..as in! nakakaawa nga sila sa totoo lang.kahit nakakahabol sila sa exams and stuff (yeah,ganun sila katalino,kahit madalas wala sa klase,ang tataas ng numero sa report card nila),the fact na review sila ng review and travel ng travel..just think! yung pressure to win the competition,yung gastos,yung nakakasawang mukha ng teacher-coach(es) nila..mas mahirap yun kaysa magdaldalan at matanungan sa klase!!!yung pagod nila,hindi ko maimagine. kami habang nag-eenjoy dahil walang discussions (masaya na kami na iniiwanan ng trabaho),sila,nagpapaka-drain ng utak para lang sa pagkapanalo ng school! as in para bang new hobby na nila yun?! shocks..
well..this post is just existing to say how boring the past few days had been for me and my classmates..kami-kami na lang ang naghahanap ng kanya-kanyang adventure sa aming school. (tapos sa exams,sisindakin kami! hanep..)
ganyan talaga..few more days...gotta hold on! got to pass sophomore year!!! and be included in next year's III-Euclid!
-ciao for now!-
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
lemme give you the lowdown kung pano magalit mom ko.if its way serious,as in yung umabot na sa boiling point nya,minsan sisigaw,tas minsan seryoso..depende sa type ni ma,and dun sa atraso ko.minsan naman,di nya ko kakausapin for a few days at mararamdaman mo talaga yung fury nya.oftentimes,makonsensya.nung first time ko nagkabagsak,yung konsensya type na medyo nakakathreaten yung boses nya..as in TIGER MODE cya nun..this grading may isa na naman..i expected the same scenario,pero ang reaksyon lang nya : "Oh,may bagsak ka? bakit?" ..in a calm voice..shocks! ako ang nakuryente instead na cya..natawa na lang ako pagkalabas ko sa kwarto nila kasi nga i was expecting a different reaction..different,pero ung usual na gagawin at sasabihin nya..
samantalang earlier kahapon while at school,pinoproblema ko pa kung pano io-open sa kanya yung grades ko.nagrerehearse pa nga ko eh! and nagdedecide kung magdadrama ba ko,or casual lang.i went with the casual aura,and it worked naman..kahapon,halos pumalakpak pati ears ko sa tuwa..pero sabi ni mama na siyempre,it can't be avoided na disappointing yung results.
dati kasi,i had a punishment.hindi ako pinayagan umattend ng youth activities sa church for almost three months not unless mabawi ko yung grades ko.nabawi naman nung second grading,kaya nga natakot ako na baka maulit this grading.fortunately,maganda ang future!haha..
waaahhh!! lapit na march!!!!
-ciao for now-
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Saturday, February 18, 2006
its an ordinary saturday..as usual..surfing surfing to the max na naman..sometimes i wonder,ano ba ang feeling ng nakahanap ng true love? sabi kasi nila mas marami problems..tapos minsan takot ako mainlove,kasi i dont wanna end up hurt.lugi ako diba?.but anyway,even if its not always a happy ending,yung ride mismo,yun na daw ang isa (kung hindi man ang pinaka) sa mga best na experiences of your earthly life. hindi ko masabi,kasi nga i've never had someone,as in boyfriend talaga.
kaya siguro ako natatawa sa nagsend saken ng quote na don't get bothered if you're single,kasi God is just busy creating the perfect love story for me. hehe..nice db? sarap isipin..
sa bagay,whats the rush? im only fourteen,and getting into a lovelife isn't just what i have to experience in high school..siguro tapusin ko muna ang four years,ay,2 years na lang ng homeworks,discussions and projects sa RSHS..then i'll get to explore the world outside! during high school siguro,i have to develop my sense of responsibility muna,to prove i can take care of myself,and to get to know MYSELF even better..before i share it with someone else..
hayyyy! feeling ko i answered my own questions. sabi nga nila,the best person u can count on for advice is yourself.
-over and out-
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Friday, February 17, 2006
our landline was down for more than 4 days,almost a week.i don't know how i did it..so many days of not surfing the net or calling my friends..gosh..i thought it was a lesson to teach me to lessen my bad habit..or TOTALLY ELIMINATE THIS ADDICTION and do it in moderation.oooh guess what.i failed geometry.AGAIN.but,i failed only for this grading,but when averaged,i'm still on the safe side,since i had a high mark last grading.i sort of have excess points,so..well..i'm having a hard time explaining here..haha..
oh well,i just failed this grading,but i still pass.
MY ALGEBRA IS IMPROVING,THOUGH.=)
not much to say.im still under recovery from the four-days-w/o-telephone
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Thursday, February 09, 2006
hayyy..what a week! kahit di pa tapos..wow..as in grabe..lots of stuff happened,pero ganyan tlga life..full of unexpected things,but the beauty of is that you never know what that unexpected-whatever could do to you..malay mo it could be the happiest thing that ever happened to you since,like,forever?! haha..the contest some of my classmates and schoolmates joined are OVER.crap.,babalik na teachers next week..we have botany class again,biology with ms.crespo and geometry (there was a math contest thingy too)..too bad they all happen to be major classes,which means they all total to one hour per subject..dang..i need new boredom busters..or at least someone to zap me back to reality once i start daydreaming,or tap me as hard as needed if i'm dozing off..grrr..
aha..valentines day is approaching,its not too far..just lurking around the corner..haha i'm wondering if "he'll" ask me out.or maghahantay ako hanggang sa concert ng cueshe and hale dito sa olongapo?! he said he wants to go daw!!! waaaah!!! could this be a prospect?! hehe..
here i go again..hmpf..back to reality sister.he's too old!!!
ciao for now..
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
nakasabay ko sa jeep ang youth pastor namin today when i was on my way home.something didn't feel right,and indeed..something wasn't right.parang right then and there,alam ko ng may negative news na dadating.he was carrying a letter for my mom kasi my mom is one of the church leaders,and my uncle is the current administrator. so pinaabot yung letter thingy,and kAbLaM!..resignation letter na pala. nagkaroon sila ng misunderstanding at miscommunication,so yun na.nagresign siya, as pastor ng church,but he's still our youth pastor,only,he wont be attending anymore.
hayy..unexpected talaga plans ni Lord no? but we can be sure na everything He does is for a reason,its flawless,maybe for us it could mean a major change or dahilan to curse Him instead of thank Him but for the Lord,its what's best for us.
talagang expect the unexpected,tignan nyo pati pastor walang kawala sa trials.i guess it should serve as a reminder na ren na we should keep an open heart and mind,and eyes na ren sa surroundings kasi minsan we're looking for the answers pero its already right in front of us..and minsan,hindi natin matanggap yung kung anong ibibigay ni Lord,and minsan nakakalimutan natin na lahat ng nangyayari may purpose,kaso naneneglect na yung significance ng problems and trials sa paligid natin.kaya like i said earlier,instead na magpasalamat,nagagalit ang iba kay Lord kapag may nangyari (i.e. death of someone,problems,financial trouble,school prob,love prob,family prob,insecurity..etc..)
REMEMBER! IN EVERYTHING GIVE THANKS!!!
God bless guys..dito muna ..
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Monday, February 06, 2006
shakis..monday na naman..kay bilis ng araw..so far medyo madali ang algebra namin,and finally i think i'm learning something haha..i'm actually paying attention now!hoo!
anyways,ang sama ko kasi exodus ako sa paglilinis,yung tipong nag-ayos lang ng upuan,solve na..haha excuses ng tinatamad at atat umuwi,bukod sa mage-erase ng board at mamumulot ng pieces of paper..hehe..
i'm gonna watch memoirs of a geisha later,i borrowed a DVD from chai.three hours yung movie,pero sobrang worth it naman for sure.
what else? um,sabi ng english teacher namin mukha daw happy at glowing ang aura ko ngayon..wow,ito ba ang epekto ng pagiging inspired?! nyakz!!! tapos yesterday some of my churchmates said i was blooming..nyerks..as if..pero anong malay naten?! perception nila yun eh! ehehe cguro totoo nga na if you're inspired (wehh inspired daw) or if you really care for someone special as of the moment,nag-iiba ka tlaga and it will always show..
hayy sana matagal akong ganito para lagi maganda..wahahahah!!!LAPIT NA VALENTINES!!!malapit na ren pala yung concert ng Hale and Cueshe dito sa olongapo..sana mameet ko si champ..or sna payagan man lang ako!asus...how i i wish hindi xa pumatak sa exam week..bad trip pag ganun..
anyways..dito muna!gonna grab the DVD!!!
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Saturday, February 04, 2006
walang may gusto ng nangyari.honestly,we can't blame anyone for the stampede at Ultra.its no one's fault,well except cguro dun sa nantrip na may bomba daw so within 5 seconds nagpanic ang lahat.you can't also blame the people kasi,nagbabaka-sakali lang naman sila diba? they were just trying to see if fate would bring them some luck..financially.di mo ren masisi ang ABS-CBN even if its their event.on their side naman,they help people thru these kind of shows,kaso yan nga lang ang circumstances,yung CROWDS.
like any other accident,no one intends it to happen.it just happens.yun na yun.i don't know if its karma to others,pero ang sama naman kung karma nga.
kawawa talaga yung mga nawalan ng family members kasi they went there hoping for some blessing to come,pero they lost someone,or a lot of their fam members.i just hope na they don't blame God or any person for that matter.Kasi hard to believe,pero kahit tragedies should be considered a blessing.sabi nga sa bible,consider it pure joy if God gives you trials.
speaking of the Lord,pagpray na lang natin sila.
_ito muna for now_God bless the stampede vics..
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Friday, February 03, 2006
can't say anything..except well..ang bilis ng araw..parang kelan lang eh i'm making a christmas wishlist..which most eh di ko nakuha!except peace of mind and a deeper relationship with God..priceless yun..shocks!ang sarap ng buhay pag walang algebra ii! my golly wow..nakakabawas ng suliranin sa eskwela wehehe..too bad next yr may precalculus na kami..waaah sana si sir raymund maging teacher namin..ang galing galing nya magexplain,whereas our current teacher although magaling cya,if he's slightly boring,wala ren mangyayari db? kahit anong dali ng subject,if the mentor talks to the wind and is always acquainted with the white board,aba..wala ng pnatunguhan ang lahat!hehe..
im trying to enjoy the remaining days of my sophomore life..in a few months,i'll be 15,shockz!and i'll be a junior of regional science high school iii..i feel so old..hehe pero nung first yr ako i haven't felt like teenager yet,just this second year haha..well tlagang ganap na teenager na ko since may chemistry at physics na kami next school yr..shockz ulet..hayy..i'll be updating kung kelan exams namin..
nga pala,malapit na elections for the student council..malapit na ko mapalitan as 2nd yr rep..huhuhu..
ciao for now!!
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Thursday, February 02, 2006
The "parang kayo, pero hindi" stage.Others call it MU or mutual understanding. Pseudo-relationships.Pseudo- boyfriends. Flings. Almost like a relationship, but not quite. It is a phase where the persons involved are more than friends,but not quite lovers. Puwedeng may verbal
agreement, puwedeng wala. One or both of you may have admitted your feelings, possible ding hindi. You just let your gestures do the talking for
you. Walang pormal na ligawan na nangyari. Hindi kayo mag-dyowa. Pero sa kilos niyo, sa mga sinasabi niyo, parang kayo, pero hindi. This kind of "relationship" can happen at different stages for different reasons. It can happen after a
break-up. You still love each other, and you want to be with each other but you broke up for a reason. And for reasons that you alone know, ayaw niyo na muna magkabalikan. It can also happen before a relationship, iyong pareho kayong
nakikiramdam. Possible din na ayaw niyo munang mag-seryoso kaya kunwa- kunwarian lang muna. Testing lang. Puwede ring hindi puwedeng maging kayo kasi isa sa inyo --usually the guy --may ka-relasyon na. Kaya habang hindi pa siya nakikipag-
break doon sa girl (sabi niya makikipag-break siya soon pero di naman niya ginagawa), wala muna kayong relsyon para nga naman hindi siya nangagaliwa kasi "hindi naman kayo." This pseudo-relationship stage, for a time, can be fun.
Lalo na kung naghahanap ka lang naman ng "kalaro."Pero huwag ka lang mag-e-expect na
may patutunguhan kayo kasi wala talagang kasiguraduhan. So bakit ang daming nagse-settle sa ganitong set up ganoong hindi naman sigurado kung may patutunguhan? Iba't ibang dahilan. Puwedeng for fun lang. Puwedeng "buti na iyan kesa w ala" or puwede na iyang "pantawid-gutom." Meaning, habang wala pa iyong the real thing, doon muna sa kunwa-kunwarian. For those who are not in a serious relationship, they
would think that pseudo-relationship is better than no relationship at all. It would be fun, if all you are after for is that "kilig"feeling. Aminado naman
ako na once upon a time, may mga pseudo-relationships din ako. No commitments involved.
For the simplest reason that they couldn't commit, because they were either committed to someone else, or that they weren't ready to commit. My rationalization, "okay na iyun, kesa wala." Ang habol ko lang naman, iyong kilig
feeling. Iyong merong nagtatanong kung kumusta araw ko. Iyong merong ka-cuddle sa beach outing. Iyong kapag tumunog ang cellphone, mapapangiti na ako dahil alam kong galing sa kanya ang message. Iyong merong laging kasama. Habang wala pa ang the real thing, puwede na itong pagtiyagaan. But then I learned that although it was only a pseudo-relationship, the emotions were real. And usually, in this kind
of set up, ang babae lagi ang lugi. Una, you can't ask him to commit. Since it's not really a relationship, you can't demand commitment from your partner. Ano ba kayo? May K ka nga ba magpasundo ng hatinggabi? You will always be uncertain about your role in his life. You can't expect him to be always there with you. And if
you feel jealous of the other girls, you just have to keep it to yourself. Ano ka ba niya para magselos? Pangalawa, what if you fall deeply in love with him? You can't be sure if he feels the same way. Baka nag-a-assume ka lang na mahal ka rin niya. Even if you are dying to tell him you love him, you can't. Because you're not sure if he'll like it. Baka mapahiya ka lang. This stage will always make you wonder where you are in the relationship. Or if there is a relationship at all. Pangatlo, what if you become attached too much? What if you have invested all your
emotions and this man hasn't? What if you remain faithful to him, not entertaining other guys, only to find out that he is seeing other girls.Isa pang downside ng pseudo-relationships, it is fleeting. When a disagreement sets in, or when
one of you gets cold, then that would be the end of it. Unlike in a serious relationship, hindi mo alam kung saan ka lulugar sa isang pseudo-relationship. Wala kang pinanghahawakan.
Kasi sa pseudo-relationship, there is no "us."
Meron lang "you and me," hindi "us."
Buti sana kung pseudo-pain din lang ang
mararanasan mo. Kaso, hindi eh. Real pain. And
usually, kahit tapos na ang pseudo- relationship,
hindi mo maiwasan umasang one day, may
karugtong pa rin iyun. And you will be miserable,
hoping to bring back what you used to have, only
to find out eventually that the guy is in another
pseudo-relationship with somebody else.
Ang hirap, ano? You agreed to this kind of set up
is for fun and then you'd end up hurting yourself in
the process.
Pero puwede naman maiwasan ang pain eh.
Puwede naman na hindi mo muna isipin ang future
and just enjoy the feeling, without thinking of the
consequences.
But if you are certain that you are going to hurt
yourself in the process, kailangan mo mamili. You
can be happy and live the moment without
worrying what would happen next. Or you can stop
settling with pseudo-relationships and wait for the
real thing.
When I was younger and in a pseudo-relationship
with an unavailable guy, a friend told me, "Sige,
kung ayaw mong magpapigil, bahala ka.
Magpakasaya ka. Pero huwag kang iiyak-iyak
pagkatapos, dahil tatadyakan kita."
Ang bottom line lang naman, kung magpapasaya
sa iyo, gawin mo.
Ihanda mo lang ang sarili mo sa consequence.
Dahil ang "parang kayo pero hindi" stage ay
bihirang nagiging totoo. Usually, hanggang
doon lang siya ... almost, but not quite.
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